Writing a list, and checking it twice…

Tuesday, April 15th, 2008 | Uncategorized | 2 Comments

Ok, so I’m going through a bit of a phase at the minute. Some may call it “Angry Character Assasination”, but I’m just going to call it my “Pissed Off Ex-Girlfriend” phase.

Grrrr Fucking Grrrr.

So, to try and take my mind off things, I’m going to write a bit of a criteria list of what my ideal partner should be like. I’m now officially raising my selection criteria.

Please note that these are guidelines only however any possible candidates will be scored based on the following:

1. No kids. I want my first child to be his first child too.
2. Can make me laugh
3. Not afraid of hard work.
4. Spontaneous.
5. Willing to put me first.
6. Financially intelligent. I dont want to have to take on his bad gambling debts.
7. Emotionally in-touch. I want to be able to watch sad movies with him.
8. Good communicator. I want to have long chats about nothing.

Life and other disasters.

Sunday, April 13th, 2008 | Uncategorized | 1 Comment

I guess I started this blog to record all the different events that happen in my life. I also wanted to keep a personal record of my own history as I think it’s always important to be able to look back and laugh whenever possible.

My life, just recently, has been turned upside down by set of circumstances well out of my control.

Six weeks ago, Mr Frog proposed to me. He proposed while we were 18m underwater, while scuba diving off the Cairns coast. Naturally, I said yes in a blast of bubbles. It took me around 7 hours to stop smiling, and pinching myself.

In hindsight, that should have been the start of something wonderful. Mr Frog and I should have been starting a new life together as husband and wife. Instead, Mr Frog decided that he didn’t actually love me enough to go through all the hassles.

This has taken me quite a while to come to terms with. So, now I find myself looking at a whole different landscape. Instead of being happily engaged, I’m now single.

I’m humbled by the way that my family and friends have closed ranks around me - providing me with support and strength when I’ve needed it the most.

I’ve plumbed new depths, feeling helpless and hopeless. I’ve been angry, and scared, and bitter and frustrated. I’m filled with so many questions, yet I know there will never be suitable answers.

So be it.

I am 28, single, independant.

I’m sad, lonely, disapointed, but remain hopeful. There is a better life out there.