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June 23, 2003
Happy Birthday from Us.
It's really strange, the things that 'cement' ideas into your head. Some things can exist for ages, without seeming real to the logical part of your mind. It took me a full 3 weeks to understand that I had graduated, for instance. It was only when I received a "Graduate Invoice" from the Institute of Engineers that I fully understood what I had done.
Shit! Look at that! I'm an Engineer!! Rock on!!!
Damn, I have to pay $60...
This weekend, however, I realised something that had nothing to do with Engineering.
I realised that everything that I had been feeling was real. Up until this weekend, the cynical part of my mind kept telling me that this feeling is something that only exists in movies, something that doesn't belong in reality. This type of thing doesn't happen to normal people. This certainly doesn't happen to ME.
I realised I wasn't living in some little fantasy world. I wasn't about to wake up. This was real.
I realised all of this, when I had to sign a birthday card from the two of us.
Lots of love and birthday wishes,
G and J
xxx
I had to look at the card for a minute or two. Seeing both of our names written together finally brought everything home. I wasn't going to wake up. This was reality. This was dirty, gritty, living reality.
I love him so much it makes my head spin. If this is reality, I never want to go to sleep. Even in my dreams, Love never felt so good.
Posted by Jacqui at June 23, 2003 11:36 AM
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